Giving Thanks

I had an opportunity to pause last night and reflect on my life a little. I have had quite a week. I won't go into the details, but it was a little rough. I try not to let on when things are getting to me, it's a very bad habit that I had to form in my past life, but now that I can feel free to let it all out so-to-speak, I don't. Consequently, I bottle everything up and the pressure builds and then WHAM the top blows off and everything explodes all over the kitchen.

So that happened last night. MELT DOWN... And unfortunately it happened on the night of B's band concert, Q's Young Women in Excellence and M's back to school night. I couldn't be in three places at once (yep, you guessed it all three things started at 7). How could I choose which event to attend? I was going to try to pull it off, but I was no where near at my best and at my best I would need to be. Quite frankly, I was just plain exhausted and really just wanted to go to bed.

Luckily my sis called me at 4:00 and said "hey I'm in town, can I come over?" And there it was... my excuse for just staying home and relaxing and breathing and not having to choose between the kids. (This is somewhat of a public confession... letting the world know I was not a great mom last night) but... my conversation with my over-the-top amazingly, unbelievably wonderful husband and my super funny, down-to-earth, saving my life sister, caused me to be grateful for so many things.

1. I am married to the best man in the World. Who tells me he loves me every single day and
means it and shows it.
2. I have a great family (who know me better than I know my self) and love me anyway
3. My kids are so darling and are also forgiving of all of my shortcomings
4. I have been given 5 of the best gifts our Heavenly Father can give a woman
5. I have the greatest job and I love it.
6. I have a warm and loving and spirit filled home
7. I feel safe and secure
8. I have enough energy and a healthy body to do all that I need to do each day
9. I have the gospel in my life to guide me
10. I have the freedom and support to do and be anything I want

And so I am a new woman today... trying ever so much not to be bogged down with the trivia of the world for the time being. I am as tired as HELL and thanks to the physical perplexities of the week I am down 5 pounds and am comfortably zipped up into my second favorite pair of BKEs, and I am happy I am me and am giving thanks for all that I have been blessed with.