On Monday I woke up covered in blood. A shocking event in itself, but completely impossible to take when you are only 22 weeks pregnant. I sat there for a minute pondering the reasons because in my VAST pregnancy experience, I have never experienced THIS... It could be placenta previa? OR placenta abruption? Either way... a 22 week little girl would not be able to survive. My sweet little baby that I am falling in love with more and more each day because she has the cutest personality and keeps me company with her kicking and squirming ALL day long.
I immediately began cursing myself... "why are you soooooo old?" "why are you putting a baby at risk by being pregnant at this ridiculous age?" I said a quick prayer. "Thy will be done..." I said, "but, please don't do this to us. We will love her and be so good to her and we are great parents and some little babies don't get great parents. But we are and she needs us. And I love him soooooo much and can probably only give him one... let me please give him one."
The thought came into my mind. Calm down, go lay down and let her tell you she is okay. I ran into the bathroom where Raleigh was. " I am bleeding" I said "and we need to see if she is moving." He stood at the side of the bed with his hand on my stomach and one minute later, she starting moving like she always does. We were so relieved. Because we knew something was wrong with me, but she was for now... fine. All day long I monitored movements talked to the doctor and took it easy.
And now that it is Friday we, of course know that everything is all good, but for a minute there it might not have been and I had the opportunity to come to know that even though this pregnancy is kicking my butt and I haven't had the best attitude because I have felt pretty crappy for the last 4 months, I know that this is what I want more than anything in the world and we are the luckiest parents because our Heavenly Father has given us the opportunity to raise one of his most precious daughters. So everyday, I will be sure to get on my knees and thank Him for this blessing. Sometimes He will send us simple trials to remind us to be grateful for the wonderful gifts He gives us each day. This one I will never forget.
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Such a sweet post, Kac. We, too, are so thankful that everything has turned out OK. You're NOT old, I have talked to so many women who had babies in their 40's and you're no where near that age (well a little I guess) and they were fine and their babies were fine and you and your baby will be perfect too. We would appreciate no more incidents like the one this week, however, that will be enough of that!!
Kaci what a tender post and a sweet reminder of the blessing in your belly.I promise to pray for you and that sweet little girl everyday and that your pregnancy will get better and better.And you are NOT OLD NOT FAT NOT EVEN SLIGHTLY CHUBBY so dont be so hard on yourself.You are just the cutest little mommy ever. Rest up and enjoy the kicks Love Karen~
Kaci, I am beyond happy for you! I can feel you practically glowing with joy through these posts, and you deserve it more than anyone I know. I miss you and wish I could see you.
By the way, this is your old roomie - the stick babe Kristi!
That so happened with me when I was 8 months pregnant with Garrett. The doctor told me Russ and I had to sleep in different beds for a while... if you know what I mean :0
It was really scary though. When I realized I was bleeding all over the place, I was trying to remember the last time I had felt him move. I couldn't remember having felt him kick all day... which was so highly unusual. But as soon as I got to labor and delivery and they put a monitor on me, he began kicking the crap out of it. All was well.
Everything is going to be just fine. But get off your feet occasionally during the day and stay away from that hot husband of yours for a week ;) Hard to do- I am sure.
Oh my gosh, how frightening! I'm so glad everything is ok! Thanks for sharing about your prayer and the immediate answer you received, how neat.
you're awesome. so glad things are ok.
That's SO scary!!! I am glad everything is ok. Take it easy. I had to go to Labor and Delivery the other night thinking my little man was coming early. They told me no "pelvic activity" for awhile. I was dumbfounded at the term for sexin'. Unfortunately, I think I have to offer the same advice to you (in a robot voice, of course). ;)
Thanks for giving me a good cry, And a reminder of why the Lord sends us the trials that he does! Thanks for letting me read about your exciting life cause according to Mike I dont have one... I didn't hear this story I'm so glad you and sweet P.J are okay!!!
Congratulations on a girl!! I am sure relieved to hear that everything is okay after that bleeding scare. What happened? Also, you are not too old...look at me! My baby girl was perfectly healthy and born 1 month before I turned 40!! Yikes, I don't like saying that number very much. It is still sooo hard to believe that I am there already when I feel about 30.
Our most recent news is that James just accepted and started a job in Rexburg, so it looks like we will be moving there this Summer. Never thought I would be living there for good once I went to College there. James' family will be happy to have us close, but my family is very sad to see us go when we have only been here for 1 1/2 years. Life is CRAZY, but good. Love and miss ya! Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy!!
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